June 26
双生遗腹子
出自一手的封套,出自一手的歌词,连名字中的R都用回了那个恍若隔世的反字,第一次遇见Journal for Plague Lovers的浩大宣传,私下里笑笑,现在的宣传真是没劲,都急急的吃死人饭(当然没准MSP这位真的是隐居去了,隐的还真成功),连冷饭都炒不动,这算是底线?
穿着破衣烂衫,浓妆艳抹,跟无数乐队扯烂事,最后披的自己个一身血腥的MSP,NB烘烘的掀着《The Holy Bible》。肮脏的街道,没聊的日子,遥远的国家,某些不切实际的口号和思想,构成了最呼之欲出的肉嗓痛吟,如GRUNGE一般自戕自残的情绪不断涌出,如那个隐士胳膊上火荆棘般排列的刀口,不断溃烂,最后化成小小的焰火。黑眼圈是职业需要,也是骂名的由来,复杂的形式总是被卫道士们耻笑。不过碟就完全不那么回事,结构简单,歌词直白,唯一复杂的就是那股浓的化不开的糜暗情绪,正如之后的历史所显示的,隐者的人間蒸發,也自然被视为步Kurt Cobain吞枪自杀的后尘,哪有什么关系呢,扯淡也不靠谱点,如遗书一般挣扎又荒谬的里程碑,也是崩溃的绝响。延续POST的阴暗走来,从《YES》开始的激流一路奔腾,高昂的叫喊,仿佛革命真的到来,厌食症,卖淫,同性恋,连环杀人,配着BASS苍白的底音,噪音般的音墙要把人拖进去一起消极,苍白的情绪很容易侵蚀人,疫病般的迷离,只此一张,再无分专。
结果,十几年后,披着号称是印着隐者面貌的出自一人手的封套,封套上的男孩举着伤渍斑驳的肿脸,无力的咧嘴,似笑而哭的表情。好吧,没必要藏着掖着,就是自我致敬,就是续集,用的是隐者的老词,PUNK的味道早丢了多年,凭着隔世的字儿们一点儿一点儿的捞回来。本来有点嘲讽的心情,在看见歌词儿的时候,渐渐弥散。看见隐者的署名后,一种如泡沫般苦涩的感觉涌上口腔,哈,我又激动的干呕了。

扑面而来的是有点霉味的绝望,说这是原本MSP也好,年轻的MSP也罢,反正这是对我胃口的那一款。用着有点苍老无力的声音一口气唱出了十几年前的压抑与革命,撕碎的态度在第一首就迫不及待的倒出来,年少轻狂的重现,给续章名正言顺的立位,无关宣传,只是想重现消失的第四人,一个人的消失,与我不痛不痒,除了老朋友,又有谁能念想十几年呢。大致听了一遍,觉得是今年听的最带劲的BRITISH INDIE,对激昂高亢的《Peeled Apple》印象深刻,没有失望,没有变向的感觉,心中随着毁灭就毁灭的情绪静静的叫嚣着,反正就是负面,就是冲破,那就没必要小情小调的唧歪,撕破脸是最好的方式。
Love bathed her in a bath of bleach, this beauty a dipping neophobia,美丽又怎样,从里到外的腐烂,是不是更具有说服力?挣扎是无谓的,为此带来的痛苦责任自负,呵,其实是享受吧。
"Oh mummy, what's a sex pistol?", I'm confused, I only want one truth, I really don't mind being lied to是什么,不是什么,管不着,甭来吓唬我就是,我的原则太脆弱,太容易被侵蚀,怀疑是无奈,比起麻木疑惑还有可救之处,病态的寻找,也无法停止,算是对自己的妥协吧。
Riderless horses on chomsky's camelot bruises on my hands from digging my nails out无望的感觉伴随自厌一并蔓延,可能是FZL了点,但是没辙,呻吟不是一个年代的东西,说不清来源的糜暗又来了,化不开,还有扩张的趋势。
一些来自十几年前或者更久的烟尘散开,如果只是为了宣传,这无疑很成功,但对这碟的好感让我更乐意掺和点感情进去,没准这几厮是真的愿意选择这种方式来释怀,来纪念,来遗忘,用更耀眼的来辉映那遥远的异色光芒。
一些Richey Edwards语录,这个亲爱的该死的隐者
I'm not a violent person at all,When I felt like clubbing this particular journalist to death, I just directed it at myself. I don't regret it. I don't regret anything.
我不是个暴力的人.当我想打死某个记者的时候,我只是会把矛头对准自己...我不后悔这么做,我不后悔任何事.
Whenever I've got close to having any kind of relationship at all I know it's kind of fraudulent, because I still find other people attractive.I think if I truly loved someone, that wouldn't be fair…that's why I've never had a fucking girlfriend!!
任何时候我想和某人建立种亲密的关系我知道那是种欺骗,因为我仍然觉得其他人很有吸引力.我想如果我真的爱某个人,那不公平...那就是我TMD为什么没有找个女朋友的原因.
Children smile at nothing at all and it takes a lot to make an adult smile. You need something pretty spectacular.
孩子们可以不为什么就笑,但让一个成年人微笑就麻烦多了.你需要一些相当富丽堂皇的东西.
..But we're still really lonely. We don't go to parties or anything, we just waste our money. We always wanted loads of books, but, now I can afford them, I just cut them up and stick them on my wall.
..但我们仍然相当孤独.我们不去聚会或别的什么.我们是在浪费钱.我们经常会想要一大堆书,但是,现在我买得起,我只是将它们切碎或是贴在我的墙上.
That's grown-up thinking and even people who are millionaires think like that, they always want more.Stay five years old forever! Real grown-up life is just to hard to handle, so what do you do? Have another Guinness I suppose...
那就是那些成年人或是已经是百万富翁的人想要做的,他们常常想要更多.还是永远停留在五岁吧.现实的成年生活太难把握.那你会做什么呢?再来一瓶Guinness(英国某酒名),我想...
I suggested that I wouldn't play on stage anymore, but I would carry on writing words and doing the artwork and stuff. I convinced myself that was what I wanted. But it's not enough for me just to do the words. I think I'd be cheating them, 'cos the touring part is the worst bit - the bit that no band really enjoys. It's the thing that makes it feel like a job because you know what you'll be doing in three months time at two o' clock in the afternoon.
我觉得不能再在舞台上演出了.但我会接着写歌词或做些艺术设计.我确信那是我想做的.但说这些还不够,我想我会欺骗他们.因为巡演部分是最糟糕的-没有哪个乐队会把它当成享受.我会觉得这是份工作当你知道你接下来三个月每个下午2点钟会做什么的时候.
Nick tried to get Jocky Wilson's autograph once and Jockey just went 'Fuck off'. Nick's quite proud of that.
某次Nick想去要Jocky Wilson(貌似一个飞镖运动员)的签名但Jockey只回了句'去你的',Nick对那件事颇为自豪.
(Joy Division singer Ian Curtis was) the only musician whose death I was saddened by. I love music, but I couldn't give a fuck if anybody dropped dead tomorrow, I wouldn't shed a tear.
(Joy Division的主唱Ian Curtis是)我唯一为他的死感到难过的乐手.我爱音乐,但我不会在乎明天谁会暴毙.我不会难过的.
What's heavenly? Pure rock 'n' roll, dolphins, waking up and realising we're the sexiest, most intelligent,hateful rock 'n' roll band in the whole world.
什么是天堂般的生活?纯正的摇滚乐,海豚,醒来的时候发现我们是全世界最性感,最天才,最被人痛恨的摇滚乐队.
Tony Hancock's suicide note (things just went wrong too many times) is one of the most beautiful things I've ever read.
Tony Hancock的自杀留言(事情只是太多次不顺利了)是我读过的最美丽的东西之一.
When I’m driving my car and the traffic light turns red I think it’s because I’m in the car. I feel persecuted…
When I cut myself I feel so much better. All the little things that might have been annoying me suddenly seem so trivial because I’m concentrating on the pain… I’m not a person who can scream and shout so this is my only outlet. It’s all done very logically
当我开着车然后交通灯变红的时候,我会想这是因为我在车中,然后有种被迫害的感觉.当我刺痛自己的时候感觉会好多了,那些曾经烦扰我的事情突然变得微不足道因为我的注意力被疼痛吸引.我不是那种会用尖叫来发泄自己的人.这是我唯一发泄的方法.非常的有逻辑性.
I tired talking to Steve (Lamacq) for an hour to explain ourselves. He saw us as four hero-worshipping kids trying to replicate our favorite bands. There was no way I could change his mind. I didn’t abuse him or insult him, I just cut myself. To show him that we are no gimmick, that we are pissed off, that we are for real.
我想和Steve谈一个小时来介绍我们.他把我们看做四个有英雄崇拜情结并努力模仿我们喜爱的乐队的孩子.我没办法改变他的看法,我也不想伤害或辱骂他.我只是切伤我自己,告诉他我们不是在耍花招,我们确实被惹怒了,我们只是为了真实.